1957..it was a good year for
Chevrolet and a good year for me, born Feb 10, 1957 of religiously mixed parents...dad was a
German-Irish Catholic and mom all Russian Jew in the Chicago area .
Dad died when I was
fifteen..hard to take for an Elektra lil girl such as I was...so I decided to do a Don Juan
thing...hitchhiking all over the country getting stoned to the bone...did have some bouts
of sanity..getting my GED at 20 yrs of age and then sunk into a love affair with heroin,
which I recovered from 15 years ago...and no matter what they say, methadone-the drug used
to recover from the addiction-is far worse in it's destruction than heroin.
Haven't gone back to it
since but my addictive personality turned to alcohol in it's solace. In the
beginning it remained unintrusive...I managed to return to school and get my Associate of
Arts Degree with 88 credits when I only needed 64-reason being that I became obsessed in
my writing and psychology courses.
Never married...got engaged
three times..the first ..the first one a biker turned to Jesus freak who moved to Colorado
to tune pianos when I decided I was too young for marriage.....the second, Michael Dalton the true
love of my life taught me my profession, ( a mixologist of some reknown working at a
neighborhood gin mill on the street of broken dreams)- Michael died of cirrhosis back in
87, a real great year for me...as in 1987 also my apartment burnt down in a fire...the first thing I
thought about was my methadone. I lost everything. The third was simply an asshole.
Now in my mid forties I feel
I am beginning to get into know myself spiritually and sexually. I'm in tune.
Quit drinking for the most
part October 19,1998 and my only addiction now-this Pandoras box sitting in front of me
here has aided me greatly. On October 28 of the aforementioned year..in tears,
distraught and walking in a cloud nearly every day, I turned to my computer and found Maverick who had gone
through much the same battle as I . Along with some other dear friends of mine he
helped me...fate I guess maybe.
